Being a grown up is hard. Like really hard. I think the thing I struggle the most with though is keeping in touch with people. I feel like this is probably a lot of peoples week points though. We find ourselves saying things like “let’s make plans!” Or “we should totally get together soon it’s been ages”. And then we go seven months without talking to that person again. If we even talk to them then.
It’s costs us friends and loved ones and memories. We don’t do it on purpose, or at least I don’t. It’s justhard to match up everyone’s schedules. We let time get away from us. We pour ourselves into our job and work way more then we should. We lose that social life we all so desperately want and figure that social media will keep it alive. It doesn’t though. If anything social media is one of the #1 reasons our social life dies.
We are all so busy trying to get ahead in life we forget that love and friendship are such important things. Things that need work and attention. We try and blame everyone else for our relationships fizzing out but most of the time it’s our own fault.
I’ll admit it’s my fault. My depression and anxiety keep me from reaching out so instead I keep myself busy by over working and exhausting myself. I find myself letting my schedule get in the way, i find myself making excuses. I’m afraid when I do get to know a person, or more when they get to know me, they aren’t going to like what they see.
It’s not that I am an unlikable person it’s just that my brain tells me I’m not good enough.
I want to be better at staying in touch and making plans and that’s what I’m going to work towards. I’m going to fight my brain. I’m going to fight my anxiety. I guess we will see who wins.
Keep searching for Fireflies.
Reggie.
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